Letting go is hard!
I did a lot of changing this past year! The biggest changes started on the evening of September 7, 2011 as my home slipped beneath the water of the very large creek in from of our home! It filled up our home and took everything with it! What it left behind was a lot of of mud and heartache.
Another unseen thing that the flood water left behind was a new beginning! I really believe that having walked through some very painful times brought me to this place of healing and renewal. I started over in so many ways. When I lost my home I lost most of my possessions (yep! furniture, clothes, shoes, everything basically)!
But one thing that was not taken were my memories and the lives of those I deeply love! I really learned that I really didn’t care about things that night as they took us away in the boats, I only cared about getting everyone safely in the boats. Pulling away was hard, but being together was all I wanted and needed.
Things can be replaced and have been.
I lost some precious photos, but most of the stuff I lost I don’t even remember… funny how we “hoard” things thinking we “need” them and then we don’t even remember keeping them.
That night I had to let go, the water was claiming a part of my life, a big part of my life, but it did not steal my life! It did not defeat me. That night changed me in so many good ways. Of course, it has added a few more wrinkles to my face and a little more patina to my soul but it also created a clean slate for me and a chance to start over.